Pregnancy Loss and PMDD
Amanda Grace is a speaker, change worker, journal artist, teacher, and coach. Journaling for Self Esteem, Freedom & Happiness.
Learn more from Amanda at: https://www.instagram.com/journalforyourlife/
Show Notes:
“Help people create inner lives they don’t want or need to escape from”
“I know all about trying to escape myself”
“When someone is pregnant, and is no longer pregnant for whatever reason, it is so jarring to the mind and body and soul”
“It can be an alienating and disenfranchising feeling”
“It was a pregnancy and pregnancy loss that kicked off all my problems”
“Anywhere there’s women, there’s shame around our stories”
“Listen and help me find my way back from this”
“I had lots of reasons to be fucking moody”
“This was an absolute absorption… when PMDD showed up, Amanda was gone”
Women Who Run WIth the Wolves
PMDD- Premenstrual Dysphoric Disorder
“It was so severe that it became life threatening when I introduced alcohol”
“Nothing happens in a vacuum”
“Tapped into a narrative in my life about being moody”
“The first year I was self-medicated with alcohol”
“I blamed myself”
“If I wasn’t me, this wouldn’t be happening”
“My relationship with me wasn’t in a great state”
“I was at war with myself in a way I’d never been before”
“I tried all the things!”
Body shame/dieting
“Clumsy, messy, stumbling through… damaging to my self esteem and character”
“It’s not the tools don’t work… I was too dysregulated for them”
“Letting them see me at my worst”
“Surviving something I didn’t understand”
“It was as if something would snap… pure distress”
“There was a part in me taking over…”
“Was afraid to give up my orgasm” (in taking meds)
“They’re all for our suffering, but who’s for our pleasure”
“I’m reluctant to take them but at this point it would be reckless not to”
“The power of women”
“I felt stupid then for holding off so long”
“What’s so interesting about your own experience is the humility that comes with it”
“I had a lot of shame, because apparently I had a lot of judgment”
“The bright side of the last few years… knocked the arrogance out of me”
“Had to deal with the humiliation of falling apart”
“I want to be that person in the world… who says the thing”
I will do it because it’s important
People’s reactions… “I just need to find out how much sympathy you deserve”
“It’s real… there’s no point in trying to white knuckle something”
@journalforyoulife
