When we Don't Choose Abortion
My anonymous guest, a single mother of 5, shares her story of backing out on three abortion appointments to have a child that locked her into an abusive relationship for the next 5 years.
Show Notes:
2:34 “Having a baby with my abuser kept me trapped for 5 years”
3:11 Guest introduction
Domestic abuse survivor
5:16 Guest story
6:04 “I had tried so hard to emotionally separate myself from this man… but it’s so hard because you’re bonded”
6:50 “I had just moved… new hope for the future…”
7:11 “I have 5 kids and that was the one pregnancy where I immediately fell to the floor sobbing”
7:44 “I scheduled an abortion 3 times and didn’t show up”
8:37 “I was already so emotionally fragile… afraid I was going to throw myself in a mental institution”
9:08 “The narrative could have changed and it wouldn’t have to have been like that… told myself it was gonna haunt me my whole life”
Of course it would be hard to follow through on something that you believe is gonna create more trauma for people
10:48 “In hindsight I truly with all my heart believe I created more trauma by going through with it”
11:27 “If I wouldn’t have been pushed this narrative I would have saved myself and my children so much trauma”
13:52 “If I could have really been honest with myself, how is having a child with this man going to play out?”
14:21 “There’s something powerful in that time where you have the control… this might be the only time that you do”
15:00 “If I would have looked at in a completely different light, this is a time in my life where I have choices, I have power over my future”
Spiritual warfare
17:42 “Do I think that what happened was meant to happen? Not necessarily. … It won’t go to waste… now that I’m at this point it will be used for my highest good”
18:37 “I don’t think I would have had to go through 5 years of trauma”
My beliefs about free will and soul contracts: What did you come here to learn? How will you learn those things?
22:11 “What if my son would have come along in a better way”
It’s the questioning of it where the magic happens “where is this story coming from that we can’t question it”
27:06 “I was already in so much pain I didn’t know how much more I can handle”
The only resources are anti-abortion
Crisis pregnancy center “They gave me hope, I wish that would have been the narrative either way” “what if we turned that narrative around on the ultrasound too”
31:16 “If I would have went through with the abortion… I would not have been with this man; that would have changed the trajectory… yes or no to abortion was to my life as a whole”
What did you need?
34:... If abortion clinics were as supportive as crisis pregnancy centers present themselves to be
36: 23 “When you’re spiraling your spiraling, and if the only person offering you a hand is someone who is gonna lead you down this other path that’s probably the path you’re gonna take”
Life is hard either way. There’s no easy buttons.
The anti-abortion narrative tries to use our feelings against us
Sad is not bad.
You might be really sad if you have this abortion AND it will save you 5 more years of an abusive relationship
44:18 “Stop googling… stop spinning… bring yourself internally to find a solution… the right answer is internal, not in the chaos up in your head”
